It is the eve of my birthday, three years since I started this positive thinking blog project. I have come a long way and things are right on track. I am working on two of my five-year goals: moving back to Canada and establishing myself in the publishing field, particularly as a pro writer.
I have been experiencing periods of nervousness, anxiety, sadness, annoyance, peace and exuberance about this time of change. I have long since come to terms with aging through the middle years, and this method of positive thinking reflection and planning has certainly helped a lot. As I mentioned in a recent blog entry, it is not just a momentous time right now because of the birthday; I am organizing a big intercontinental move and last-ditch career change. The pending move is the more precise reason as to why it is an emotional time for me now.
I have called people together this weekend to celebrate. I had a wonderful conversation with a colleague over beers last night. I am due to join a family for dinner tonight. My brother has contacted me to arrange a phone call on the big day, tomorrow morning. Also, I have already prepared my office for the noon-hour drop-in, cake-sharing activity. Finally, several people have confirmed they will go out to dinner with me tomorrow.
Most of these friends and associates are not aware it is also a farewell occasion because I have not yet given formal notice to my employer. I am stalling to make sure the process of leaving goes in my favour, with full pay due. A colleague has put in a notice, but I am not sure how the arrangements for her leaving are going. On the other hand, I have learned that my employer has posted job ads for positions in our department, so I am assured that they already have a hiring process in place and my late notice should therefore not inconvenience or upset them.
The arrangements to move are proceeding, step by step. I just submitted yet another job application; this one is for online tutoring. It will be a good bridging job as I resettle in Canada and find something more solid and appropriate. I have mainly been putting out feelers for writing and editing positions based in Canada, though. I have also initiated online business in writing and editing but setting up service order pages on two websites. Finally, I have put up the pet birds for adoption and drawn out a list of my household and office possessions for sale.
The process is a little tiring because of the effort and the emotional effects of it.
I get through some tasks related to my move and future income-generating activities, and take a break to find I feel like taking a nap. There is not always the chance for it, because I have been marking student work, leading make-up classes,fielding communications about my offers to sell or give away stuff, and doing all the above-mentioned organizing tasks. I had planned to rest all day today and avoid socializing, but the family who cannot see me any other time requested the dinner engagement tonight, so I must go. Hopefully, I'll nap this afternoon, once I finish the birdcage-washing and housekeeping routine this morning, and then step out for a jog.