Although I am a day late in posting the Day 46 blog, rest assured that I did write it up yesterday, on schedule. There was wifi access in the train station but not on the train home, so I wrote the entry by hand in a notebook to be entered later. This is what I wrote then.
Now, I'm heading back to Busan on a slow train. It's comfortable and not too crowded. Some people are taking liberties noise-wise, but that's mostly the little children and very elderly, like the granny near me who keeps playing with plastic bags and the people who occasionally make loud phone calls.
Seats on the faster express train were not available at all today because this is a big holiday week when people make a general exodus to go visit their families in their hometowns. I was lucky to get any seat at all. On this, the "Saemaeul" commuter train, it takes five hours to get to Busan from Seoul. The scheduled arrival time is four o'clock, and we're just past the halfway mark as I write this blog entry.
When I reach my destination, I'll have to rush to get ona bus, then fix myself a meal at home and prepare for the telephone conference Korean class that will begin at seven o'clock.
I'm amusing myself with netbook card games, messaging and reading the dotty doctor's self-improvement book. Since I have discovered ebooks loaded onto my new smart phone, I'll start a novel, too. There is Dumas' "Three Musketeers". Having read "The Count of Montecristo", I know that I'm in for a good yarn. Dumas' stories are full of action and humour, while there is an underlying seriousness and a political context.
Mostly, Dottie Billington and I are on the same wave-length, although she concentrates on attitude and internal change, as least as far as I can see so far in the book, "Life is an Attitude." I'm just past the 100th page. She talks about goals, visualizing a new identity and lifestyle, decision-making, and behavior adjusting all with the underlying premise that a person can make happiness happen and act to get more out of life as one ages well into the last phase of biological life. Right on! Unlike me, she has done extensive study on the topic, from the angle of gerontology, and carefully planned an entire book with specific how-to suggestions and well thought out examples all systematically placed and explained. Kudos to her!
I have not voiced it particularly yet in this project, but dealing with turning 55 has been a reason for me to get on a new positive track. I left for a new life abroad in my fiftieth year, and can say that all the new experiences have been a good distraction from concerns about aging. In the following year, I went through menopause with hardly a ruffle because I was in an exciting new context making gains professionally and personally. However, I started to become a bit glum and morose about aging as the years passed and I had been working at the same job for a while. Friends noticed that I was always talking about how I was getting on in years. I did voice worries and woes about the situation often. It has been a psychological battle to face becoming 55+ single, childless, and without property. I used several tactics to help myself feel better. I took on new volunteer activities, job challenges and made some big voyages. I kept writing and got ebooks uploaded and did some promotion. I tried to stick to some fitness activities and I improved my diet.
This blog is another step. As I emerged from the dark waters, I found a new outlook. I'm trying to develop that outlook, and stay positive.